Thank FEC it's over !

Well - thats's me finished with FEC and relatively unscathed. Mild nausea and tiredness but nothing to grumble about.

My hair never did fall out completely so Gordon helped me shave the remnants last night and I now have a beautiful smooth head - no more jaggy stubble - hurray !!

My eyelashes and eyebrows have only thinned a bit and not fallen out so I can cope with that but it did give me a good excuse to spend lots of money on posh makeup today - which cheered me up no end.

My next appointment at hospital is for a "simulator" which - despite sounding like something I would refuse to go at Alton Towers theme park - I'm assured has something to do with lining up the radiotherapy beams and ... wait for it ... tatoos !

So - four weeks of radiotherapy and four sessions of taxotere and then I'm done (a year of herceptin excluded of course)! Roll on - doesn't time fly when you're having fun !!!

Marjory

Oh what a beautiful day!

Just taken an hour out of a busy day to walk my dogs and it felt so good to be healthy and full of life. One of my kids just asked me "mum ... when do puppies open their eyes?" - made me all mushy but I guess getting another dog at present is not really an option. I'm so lucky to live in such an amazing part of the world and to walk in the countryside thro' field after field in the sunshine reminds me how precious life is and how important my fight is.
Life really feels good today and as far as chemo tomorrow - bring it on!

All change.....

Well it's all change this year! Instead of rushing four children back to school this week its one to nursery, one to new school in Edinburgh, one to college and one to university. Boy the whole thing makes me feel old-how did it happen that I'm old enough to have a child at university?!

Anyway, I've been not too bad at all this time after FEC, maybe slightly more tired but all in all nothing to grumble about. I get my last dose of the awful stuff this Wednesday and can't wait to get it over and done with.

My month of radiotherapy seems quite attractive at the moment. A whole four weeks of peace and quiet driving myself to Edinburgh, 5 minutes in a machine then home again! What a sad life I must have if I find that something to look forward to. I really must get out more......

After radiotherapy I start my 4 sessions of Taxotere and Herceptin. I seem to have it in my head that Taxotere won't be as bad as FEC-less sickness, tiredness, etc. I'm I just being hopeful? Let me know anyone out there who's had it and how it affected you. Can't believe I'm just about half way thro' my chemo bit of treatment and I'm so grateful I've felt relatively well most of the time.

I have to say I'm finding it harder than I thought to stick to the dairy free diet. Feeling tired and sick some of the time just makes me want to cook and eat things I'm familiar with-real comfort food in other words! Since trying to stick to the diet I have a ridiculous craving for chocolate milk shakes-I didn't even like them before all this!

I suppose it's all about balance in everything.

Gordon and I have our wedding anniversary coming up and have booked a fantastic night away at a luxury hotel-I CAN'T WAIT. Normally I wouldn't have minded no summer holiday but this year I have minded....a lot. Can feel myself scowling at anyone enthusing about their fortnight in some sunny place. Not very charitable I know but I do hide it well (so far) Heaven help anyone who tells me they had a terrible holiday.

Wish me luck on Wednesday and here's hoping my bloods aren't too low to get the wicked stuff.

Marjory